Entities...

Fri 30/10/98 going to work.  I'd been feeling effect/
hopeless/overwhelmed (even weepy) after further sleepless
nights because of a neighbour's noisy fish tank.  As the
problem has gone on for some months and didn't look like
resolving easily it seemed `natural' to feel that way, and
after all I had felt that way often in the past (note - but
only as a child - however that thought didn't occur to me at
the time).  Assessing these feelings while walking to the
station I realised it just wasn't `me' to feel that way and
I determined to get to the bottom of it.  I put my attention
on the part of me that was feeling that way and after a
minute realised `it' was in fact an entity. 

Jabba the Hut

The entity/emotion mass was quite large and had enveloped
me, but I maintained my attention on it and eventually got
some mental distance/space between me and it.  It then
resolved into a shape exactly like Jabba the Hut (from the
Star Wars movies).  A number of things soon became clear. 
The feelings described above were coming from it, not me.  I
maintained attention on it and used the first question of
the NOTs valence technique (What are you?).  I received
data/images about the entity's affinity for large marine
lifeforms such as the whale, particularly the walrus.

After duplicating the entity's mockup/apparancy I used the
second question (Who are you?) expecting the `Me' answer. 
After a minute or two of this I perceived the separation of
the theta part of the entity from its walrus/Jabba mockup. 
Despite countless entity handlings I'd never before
recognised this phenomenon for what it was, an
exteriorisation.  At this time I experienced the usual
pinging/singing `sound' in my ears as the entity blew/left. 
Also, although still tired from lack of sleep, the negative
emotions disappeared.

Crew

Now I will mention the presence of another entity, apart
from `Jabba', which I immediately recognised as one of the
crew of a ship (large ship, navy destroyer, unusual for me
as it's usually space craft) (Oh, as I write this I now
realise this is properly known as a cluster - I hadn't
recognised it as such).  This ship and crew had turned up in
recent Self Clearing and I'd handled about twenty of them
but there could be hundreds so I abandoned it (excuse the
pun!) when it seemed flat. 

Anyway, the point is that this other entity was/is (is still
there and you'll appreciate why shortly) in a messenger/
ensign/crew mockup and was in fact escorting/ assisting
`Jabba' to come to my attention.  

I pause here to acknowledge the disbelief/incredulity of
even the most imaginative of readers/humans.  Many/most? even
trained/seasoned scienos, ex scienos/clearing practitioners
baulk at Hubbard's `entity theory'.  However I have arrived
at this point after many years of sound lower
level training/processing and upper level training/
processing.  I long ago learned not to invalidate the
preclear's/client's data and I'm not going to begin now.  As
one rejects this data so one fails to confront this area of
existence, and therefore fails to operate fully as a thetan.

Promotion

Anyway, back to the sequence of events.  The
ensign/messenger/crew entity was virtually `reporting for
duty'.  My practice up until now has been to use the
What/Who technique on an entity, ignoring/declining requests
to `stay on for the ride'.  This time I felt a more optimum
solution was to have him `Well, go round up another one'. 
(As `crew' he, by the way, sees them as `stowaways').  Well,
he immediately produced/dragged forth another entity - which
I duly handled and is of course another story.  I had never
before been looked up to with such devotion/willingness to
assist. 

Commodore

My win here was experiencing the status of `Commodore'.  Up
until now I've been unable to accept/have any upper
rank/management position in daily life.  However, when I
decided to enlist the aid of this entity I felt such a burst
of affinity and understanding for LRH's commodore position,
a renewal of faith in his Scn `organisation'.

The above is not an unusual occurrence in my life as a
freezone `OT'.  Quite the contrary.  The handling of
entities is a typical and frequent activity as they come to
my awareness or manifest in routine processing (currently
Pilot's Self Clearing book, completed Ch 10 so far), at
least one or two per week.  Handling entities does seem like
an endless process.  I've heard Hubbard became discouraged
by the sheer quantity of them and I can relate to that
totally.  But it does have to be done.  The entire lower
Bridge could be seen to simply be preparation/training 
to handle entities.

I could provide many more such anecdotes but the fact is
that whereas entities can be dealt with in a matter of
minutes it can take hours to write what happened, revise it,
re-revise it, edit it, etc, so that it stands as an accurate
record in a form that others can understand. I decided to write
this incident up as it seemed particularly interesting to me.

Monday 2/11/98

Continuation of entity handling - after `Jabba'

entity 1. Eyeball

What? Watcher/monitor
Who?  (got stream of images/identities/objects - more yawning - mmm, 
cog, monitor, that's why crew brought it first... it was suppressing 
things - yawns - charge blowing 'cos seems to have been holding cluster 
in place, yawan, mmm, getting Inc 1 now, and earl universe...  mmm my 
home universe seems more real, cog - this being could be split from 
me!, that's why the earl stuff so `solid'/persistent - if it belongs to 
another/others then it won't as-is!?!?
Who? mmm, this is my first real reality on split selves
(just rehabbed 8D VP of `I am everyone'! - marvellous freedom of `know 
points', could be entity's cognition - opposite of `I'm me', I'm 
everybody!, mmm, one with all, aberration coming off of entity?, yawn.
Who? - cog, one with all implant has allowed this to occur, and 
OTIII/Inc II was dramatization of this earlier implant.
Who? - mmm, resentment at all this `crap' done to us/him - I'm `me' and 
was never allowed to be me!, mmm, eg today is swallowed/accepted/taken 
for granted as being the only way it can be, cog, today we/humans are 
completely utterly mesmerised /inflowing reality, totally/irrevocably 
enmeshed in `maya'.

entity is now exterior to mest game and glad didn't get trapped 
further, realises trap of mest v theta, games release, (yawn), theta 
clear? mest clear? (yawn).  entity appears to be `morphing' through 
various mockups as it is `held' by crew member, appears to then 
blow/disappear.
copies? ... more eyeballs appear around ship, spotted as locations of 
overts by eyeball, actual duplications/clonings (that's why that movie 
disturbed me, when alien divided itself)
Who? me.. me (cog, `aye aye, sir' was keying it in , missing w/hold !!)

Wow! That's funny/crazy/unbelievable, but there you are!!!

entity 2.

What? prisoner/pirate
Who? another `spy' from Marcab? from earlier time, (recall earlier 
dream of rail journey to coast, into water, under water city/place) 
(yawn) Another fragment... me became me!, recall of Krishna mockup as 
possible fragment as well, also - recall of groin operation, where 
joined to leg, = self joined to self, by link of flesh.

lunch

(to be continued...)