Nov 26,91
I think this one was used in the symbols universe, but it might possibly be much earlier, perhaps even from the reality wars. The first sequence, which is "I want to" / "I don't want to", is designed to seem like your own thoughts. The items are projected from gold (positive) and silver (negative) balls and there is a black explosion which sends out dividing sheets of black energy. The first run has these coming from the left and right. Later runs use front/back, above/below (head/stomach?) etc.
DISABILITY IMPLANT: FIRST SERIES (I Want) of the FIRST RUN
1. I want to escape
2. I don't want to be captured
3. I want to start
4. I don't want to stop
5. I want to go forward
6. I don't want to go back
7. I want to be awake
8. I don't want to be asleep
9. I want to be competent
10. I don't want to be incompetent
11. I want to remember
12. I don't want to forget
13. I want to be light
14. I don't want to be heavy
15. I want to be treated honestly
16. I don't want to be fooled
17. I want to be allowed to remain
18. I don't want to be driven away
19. I want to be aware
20. I don't want to go unconscious
21. I want to be able to stop
22. I don't want to be made to continue
23. I want to be finished with this implant
24. I don't want to begin this implant
25. I want to be unspinning
26. I don't want to be dizzy
27. I want to be able to find out
28. I don't want to be unable to find out
29. I want to be perceptive
30. I don't want to be blind
31. I want to be replenished
32. I don't want to be drained
33. I want to be energetic
34. I don't want to be tired
35. I want to be lively
36. I don't want to be in a stupor
37. I want to wake up
38. I don't want to be knocked out
39. I want to be blessed
40. I don't want to be cursed
41. I want to keep track of things
42. I don't want to loose track of things
43. I want to focus attention
44. I don't want to be distracted
45. I want to get moving
46. I don't want to get stuck
47. I want to be forgiven
48. I don't want to be blamed
49. I want to do what I'm doing
50. I don't want to do something else
51. I want to do well
52. I don't want to do poorly
53. I want to feel pleasure
54. I don't want to feel pain
55. I want to be comforted
56. I don't want to be tortured
57. I want to be healthy
58. I don't want to be sick
59. I want to be created
60. I don't want to be destroyed
61. I want to be untouched
62. I don't want to be impacted
63. I want to be oriented
64. I don't want to be disoriented
65. I want to be capable of thinking
66. I don't want to be incapable of thinking
67. I want to do enough
68. I don't want to do too little
69. I want to find things
70. I don't want to loose things
71. I want to be hard to fool
72. I don't want to be easy to fool
73. I want to be rewarded
74. I don't want to be punished
75. I want to be pleased
76. I don't want to be disappointed
77. I want to be free
78. I don't want to be trapped
79. I want to be refreshed (replenished)
80. I don't want to be worn down
81. I want to be patient
82. I don't want to be impatient
83. I want to accept things
84. I don't want to be anxious about things
85. I want to have confidence
86. I don't want to have doubts
87. I want to be trouble-free
88. I don't want to have trouble
89. I want to be mocked up
90. I don't want to be unmocked
91. I want to have identity
92. I don't want to be nobody
93. I want to be an individual
94. I don't want to be part of a composite
95. I want to have free will
96. I don't want to be controlled
97. I want to be justified
98. I don't want to be unjustified
99. I want to be proper
100. I don't want to be scandalous
101. I want to have pride
102. I don't want to be ashamed
103. I want to be early ?
104. I don't want to be late
105. I want to be relaxed
106. I don't want to be nervous
107. I want to pay attention
108. I don't want to ignore things
109. I want to be certain
110. I don't want to be confused
111. I want to have a future
112. I don't want to be doomed
113. I want to have pleasant sensations
114. I don't want to have disturbing sensations
115. I want to be agreed with
116. I don't want to have arguments
117. I want to have feeling
118. I don't want to feel numb
119. I want to hold together
120. I don't want to fall apart
121. I want to be ethical
122. I don't want to be immoral
(immortal / age ?)
(be old/young ?
123. I want to be nice
124. I don't want to be nasty
125. I want to be given things
126. I don't want to be deprived of things
127. I want to feel comfortable
128. I don't want to feel strained
129. I want to be wholesome
130. I don't want to be infected
131. I want to be allowed to continue
132. I don't want to be interfered with
133. I want to be special
134. I don't want to be mundane
135. I want to be able to concentrate
136. I don't want to be dispersed
137. I want to be willing
138. I don't want to be unwilling
139. I want to be superior
140. I don't want to be inferior
141. I want to be clean
142. I don't want to be infested
143. I want to be spacious
144. I don't want to be solid
145. I want to be cool
146. I don't want to burn
147. I want to be warm
148. I don't want to freeze
149. I want to feel safe
150. I don't want to be afraid
151. I want to protect myself
152. I don't want to ruin myself
153. I want to be noble
154. I don't want to be degraded
155. I want to feel complacent
156. I don't want to feel worried
157. I want to avoid grief
158. I don't want to be grief-stricken
159. I want to feel relief
160. I don't want to feel pressure
161. I want to be settled
162. I don't want to be hyper-active
163. I want to be rested
164. I don't want to be unable to rest
165. I want to be accurate
166. I don't want to make mistakes
167. I want to be knowing
168. I don't want to be unknowing
169. I want to see things clearly
170. I don't want to have distorted perceptions
171. I want to be lucky
172. I don't want to be unlucky
173. I want to avoid accidents
174. I don't want to have accidents
175. I want to be favored
176. I don't want to be picked on
177. I want to be smart
178. I don't want to be dumb
179. I want to have purpose
180. I don't want to be purposeless
181. I want to be a part of things
182. I don't want to be detached
183. I want to have interests
184. I don't want to be uninterested
185. I want to do the right amount
186. I don't want to do too much
187. I want to be guided
188. I don't want to be misled
189. I want to be blocked
190. I don't want to be unblocked
191. I want to have open perceptions
192. I don't want to be covered in blackness
193. I want to be rational
194. I don't want to be irrational
195. I want to have correct recollections
196. I don't want to misremember
197. I want to be unbothered
198. I don't want to be restimulated
199. I want to do what is needed
200. I don't want to omit things
201. I want to be careful
202. I don't want to be careless
203. I want to be able
204. I don't want to be incapable
205. I want to reach ?
206. I don't want to withdraw
207. I want to know who I am
208. I don't want to become confused about identity
209. I want to take care of myself
210. I don't want to be helpless
211. I want to be industrious
212. I don't want to be lazy
213. I want to be included in things
214. I don't want to miss out on things
215. I want to be validated (praised)
216. I don't want to be invalidated
217. I want to be admired
218. I don't want to be abhorred
219. I want to be beautiful
220. I don't want to be ugly
221. I want to be big
222. I don't want to be small
223. I want to communicate
224. I don't want to be unable to communicate
225. I want to be communicated with
226. I don't want to be ignored
227. I want to conserve things
228. I don't want to waste things
229. I want to perceive truly
230. I don't want to be deluded
231. I want to be located
232 I don't want to be lost
233. I want to think clearly
234. I don't want to have muddled thinking
235. I want for everything to be obvious
236. I don't want for everything to be obscure
237. I want to be encouraged
238. I don't want to be discouraged
239. I want to be accepted
240. I don't want to be shunned
241. I want to be supported
242. I don't want to be persecuted
243. I want to estimate correctly
244. I don't want to mis-estimate
245. I want to be complete
246. I don't want to be incomplete
247. I want to be enthusiastic
248. I don't want to be despondent
249. I want to get things right
250. I don't want to get things mixed up
251. I want to get things correct
252. I don't want to miss things
253. I want to have things in sequence
254. I don't want to have things out of sequence
255. I want to identify things correctly
256. I don't want to confuse one thing with another
257. I want to differentiate things
258. I don't want to think that everything is the same
259. I want to be able to keep things together
260. I don't want to have everything fall apart
261. I want to be treated rightly
262. I don't want to be treated wrongly
263. I want to be logical
264. I don't want to be illogical
(? reach/withdraw here?)
265. I want to be imaginative
266. I don't want to be dull
267. I want to feel pleasant
268. I don't want to feel horrible
269. I want to be accepting of things
270. I don't want to be revolted by things
271. I want to be responsible
272. I don't want to be irresponsible
273. I want to see reality
274. I don't want to see delusions
275. I want to be complacent
276. I don't want to be desperate
277. I want to be fast
278. I don't want to be slow
279. I want to be reasonable
280. I don't want to be fanatical
281. I want to be right
282. I don't want to be wrong
283. I want to be rich
284. I don't want to be poor
285. I want to be decisive
286. I don't want to be unable to make up my mind
287. I want to be whole
288. I don't want to be divided against myself
289. I want to be contented
290. I don't want to be bothered
291. I want to be strong
292. I don't want to be weak
293. I want to be enduring
294. I don't want to be transient
295. I want to be calm
296. I don't want to be upset
297. I want to be carefree
298. I don't want to be weighed down
299. I want to be effective
300. I don't want to be ineffective
301. I want to put things in the right place
302. I don't want to put things in the wrong place
303. I want to know where things belong
304. I don't want to not know where things belong
305. I want to know where things are
306. I don't want to not know where things are
307. I want to put things the right way around
308. I don't want to put things backwards
309. I want to be happy
310. I don't want to be sad
311. I want to have the will to live
312. I don't want to be unwilling to live
313. I want to have variety
314. I don't want to be bore
315. I want to know truth
316. I don't want to believe lies
317. I want to be told the truth
318. I don't want to be given false data
319. I want to know what is real
320. I don't want to be unsure of what is real
321. I want to know what is there
322. I don't want to imagine things that aren't there
323. I want to be complemented
324. I don't want to be criticized
325. I want to be loved
326. I don't want to be hated
327. I want to have friends
328. I don't want to have enemies
329. I want to have allies
330. I don't want to have opponents
331. I want to be loose
332. I don't want to be restrained.
333. I want to have choices
334. I don't want to have no choice
335. I want to be allowed to proceed
336. I don't want to be hemmed in
337. I want to be causative
338. I don't want to be at effect
339. I want to reach things
340. I don't want to be unable to reach things
341. I want to control things
342. I don't want to be unable to control things
343. I want to have games
344. I don't want to have no game
345. I want to be satisfied
346. I don't want to be unsatisfied
347. I want to have what you need
348. I don't want to suffer from cravings.
349. I want to have no regrets
350. I don't want to be regretful
351. I want to be open
352. I don't want to be closed in
353. I want to arrange things correctly
354. I don't want to mess things up
355. I want to see acceptable things
356. I don't want to be dazzled.
357. I want to receive sympathy
358. I don't want to get no sympathy
359. I want to get away with things
360. I don't want to be accused
361. I want to be acquitted
362. I don't want to be condemned
363. I want to be let go
364. I don't want to be hunted
365. I want to escape the consequences
366. I don't want to suffer the consequences
367. I want to avoid being implanted
368. I don't want to be implanted
369. I want to please people
370. I don't want to upset people
371. I want to obey the rules
372. I don't want to break the rules
373. I want to be good
374. I don't want to be evil
375. I want to help others
376. I don't want to harm others
377. I want to reassure people
378. I don't want to shock people
379. I want to make others feel safe
380. I don't want to terrorize others
381. I want to have normal desires
382. I don't want to be obsessed
383. I want to be sane
384. I don't want to be insane
385. I want to take enough time
386. I don't want to take too long
387. I want to be independent
388. I don't want to be dependent
389. I want to be satiated
390. I don't want to have longings
391. I want to know what's going on
392. I don't want to be puzzled by events
393. I want to know what's going to happen
394. I don't want to be taken by surprise
395. I want to know the consequences
396. I don't want to be caught unaware
397. I want to be able to adapt
398. I don't want to be unable to change
399. I want to be flexible
400. I don't want to be rigid
401. I want to be on time
402. I don't want to be too late
403. I want to be participating
404. I don't want to be alone
405. I want to like what is going on
406. I don't want to dislike everything
407. I want to be able to protest
408. I don't want to have to put up with everything
409. I want to be able to change conditions
410. I don't want to be stuck with things as they are
411. I want to be stable
412. I don't want to be pushed around
413. I want to be able to decide not to do something
414. I don't want to be forced to do things
415. I want to be at the right distance
416. I don't want to be too close
417. I want to have hope
418. I don't want to be hopeless
419. I want to understand things
420. I don't want to misunderstand things
421. I want to receive help
422. I don't want to get no help
423. I want to be fair
424. I don't want to be unfair
425. I want to be sharing
426. I don't want to be selfish
427. I want to have the right amount
428. I don't want to have too much
429. I want to feel full
430. I don't want to feel empty
431. I want to be at the right time
432. I don't want to be early
433. I want to be in the right space
434. I don't want to be in the wrong space (place ?)
435. I want to be kind
436. I don't want to be cruel
437. I want to be human
438. I don't want to be a monster
439. I want to be where you should be
440. I don't want to be too far away
441. I want to be successful
442. I don't want to be a failure
443. I want to win
444. I don't want to lose
445. I want to feel relieved
446. I don't want to feel crushed
447. I want to be defended
448. I don't want to be attacked.
449. I want to be tough
450. I don't want to be overwhelmed
451. I want to be determined
452. I don't want to give up
453. I want to be a good citizen.
454. I don't want to be a criminal
455. I want to be a member of society
456. I don't want to be an outcast
457. I want to support society
458. I don't want to overthrow society
459. I want to advance
460. I don't want to be held back
461. I want to have nice things
462. I don't want to have nothing
463. I want to have enough space
464. I don't want to have too little space
465. I want to be allowed to remain
466. I don't want to be kicked out of spaces
467. I want to be wise
468. I don't want to be foolish
469. I want to do things at the right time
470. I don't want to do things at the wrong time
471. I want to have enough time
472. I don't want to run out of time
473. I want to rise
474. I don't want to fall
475. I want to grow
476. I don't want to shrink
477. I want to get better
478. I don't want to get worse
479. I want to become more substantial
480. I don't want to get thinner
481. I want to know what time it is
482. I don't want to not know what time it is
483. I want to know what space I'm in
484. I don't want to not know what space I'm in (know where I am?)
485. I want to estimate time correctly
486. I don't want to mis-estimate time
487. I want to estimate distance correctly
488. I don't want to mis-estimate distance
489. I want to have faith
490. I don't want to have disbelief
491. I want to be enlightened
492. I don't want to be mystified
493. I want to spot the source of things
494. I don't want to spot the wrong source
495. I want to please god
496. I don't want to displease god
497. I want to obey god
498. I don't want to defy god
499. I want to be saved
500. I don't want to be dammed
501. I want to be in heaven
502. I don't want to be in hell
503. I want to be alive
504. I don't want to be dead
505. I want to dwell in paradise forever
506. I don't want to burn in hell forever
507. I want to create
508. I don't want to destroy
509. I want to have reality
510. I don't want to feel unreal
511. I want to have the right time
512. I don't want to have the wrong time
513. I want to have the right space
514. I don't want to have the wrong space
515. I want to have the right energy
516. I don't want to have the wrong energy
517. I want to have the right mass
518. I don't want to have the wrong mass
519. I want to be real
520. I don't want to be unreal
521. I want to be right about time
522. I don't want to be wrong about time
523. I want to be right about space
524. I don't want to be wrong about space
525. I want to be right about energy
526. I don't want to be wrong about energy
527. I want to be right about mass
528. I don't want to be wrong about mass
529. I want to be right about existence
530. I don't want to be wrong about existence
531. I want to have mass
532. I don't want to have no mass
533. I want to have energy
534. I don't want to have no energy
535. I want to have space
536. I don't want to have no space
537. I want to have time
538. I don't want to have no time
539. I want to have a universe
540. I don't want to have no universe
541. I want to have existence
542. I don't want to have no existence
(have existed/ never have existed?
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DISABILITY IMPLANT: MASTER PLOT
Dec 04, 91
For the second series, "want" changes to "need" in the above list of items and in the third series it become "have to". From then on, the root changes to a goal, beginning with "To Agree". The items would then be "To Agree is To Escape" / "To Disagree is To Be Captured", etc.
This pretty much fell apart for me around the 31st series. I carried on, mostly by assessment, running a few items off of the top of each one to try and map the rest of it out. Its quite possible that some of these are incorrect or that I missed a few.
1. I want to / I don't want to
2. I need to / I can't bear to
3. I have to / I must not
4. to agree / to disagree
5. to obey / to disobey
6. to do nothing with the mind / to do anything with the mind
7. to be unaware of this / to be aware of this
8. to not figure this out / to figure this out
9. to resist change / to try to change
10. to be in a body / to be outside of a body
11. to interiorize / to exteriorize
12. to keep this implant / to undo this implant
13. to generalize / to identify
14. to associate / to disassociate
15. to not look / to look
16. to not scan / to scan
17. to synchronize with reality / to desynchronize from reality
18. to fixate on physical reality / to shift in reality
19. to limit myself to 3 dimensions / to extend beyond 3 dimensions
20. to be aware of only 3 dimensions / to be aware of more than 3 dimensions
21. to not heal / to heal
22. to not cure / to cure
23. to entrap others / to release others
24. to enturbulate / to unenturbulate
25. to abberate / to deabberate
26. to block others / to unblock others
27. to inhibit others / to uninhibit others
28. to not run out / to run out
29. to not clear / to clear
30. to not restore / to restore
31. to mockup physical reality / to not mockup physical reality
32. to not duplicate / to duplicate
33. to not replicate / to replicate
34. to cross-copy / to not cross-copy
35. to not program thoughts / to program thoughts
36. to respond to programmed thoughts / to ignore programmed thoughts
37. to be unaware of machinery / to be aware of machinery
38. to not create machinery / to create machinery
39. to ignore mental machinery / to control mental machinery
40. to be the effect of mental machinery / to be unaffected by mental machinery
41. to obey universe machinery / to disobey universe machinery
42. to hide universe machinery / to notice universe machinery
43. to be in one place / to be in many places
44. to not see the structure of things / to see the structure of things
45. to not see through things / to see through things
46. to not look within things / to look within things
47. to not know / to know
48. to not see remotely / to see remotely
49. to not locate / to locate
50. to not pervade / to pervade
51. to not permeate / to permeate
52. to not dimensionalize / to dimensionalize
53. to not-is / to as-is
54. to agree with the time stream / to leave the time stream
55. to be wrong about time / to spot the correct time
56. to have a time track / to have no time track
57. to take time / to bypass time
58. to be the effect of time / to ignore time
59. to maintain the present / to change the past
60. to be the effect of entities / to not be the effect of entities
61. to hold on to entities / to let go of entities
62. to obey entities / to disobey entities
63. to block entities from view / to see entities
64. to be infested / to be clean
65. to infest others / to clean others
66. to be divided against myself / to be whole
67. to fragment / to integrate
68. to not orient anchor points / to orient anchor points
69. to not determinate objects / to determinate objects
70. to leave the structure of things alone / to manipulate the structure of things (?)
71. to not make things materialize / to make things materialize
72. to not dematerialize / to dematerialize
73. to make solids impenetrable / to make solids penetrable
74. to not infinitize / to infinitize
75. to not actualize / to actualize
76. to perpetuate reality / to violate reality
77. to leave random / to unrandomize
78. to not read minds / to read minds
79. to not take over others minds / to take over others minds
80. to not alter others minds / to alter others minds
81. to not implode others pictures / to implode others pictures
82. to not swamp thoughts / to swap thoughts
83. to not project thoughts / to project thoughts
84. to not endow life / to endow life
85. to not manipulate life-force / to manipulate life-force
86. to not drain life-force / to drain life-force
87. to not intend / to intend
88. to not postulate / to postulate
89. to not levitate / to levitate
90. to not teleport / to teleport
91. to not manipulate energy / to manipulate energy
92. to not create energy / to create energy
93. to propagate flows / to dampen flows
94. to not glare / to glare
95. to not beam / to beam
96. to not blanket / to blanket
97. to not zap / to zap
98. to not nip / to nip
99. to not mockup / to mockup
100. to not spaceate / to spaceate
101. to not energize / to energize
102. to not historicize / to historicize
103. to maintain a single viewpoint / to maintain multiple viewpoints
104. to need mass / to do without mass
105. to need energy / to do without energy
106. to need time / to do without time
107. to need space / to do without space (?)
108. to fill space / to have space (?)
109. to be located / to not be located
110. to gain mass / to loose mass
111. to be effected by energy / to ignore energy
112. to deteriorate / to improve
113. to follow the laws of energy / to violate the laws of energy
114. to follow the laws of space / to violate the laws of space
115. to follow the laws of time / to violate the laws of time
116. to follow the laws of matter / to violate the laws of matter
117. to not predict / to predict
118. to not predetermine / to predetermine
119. to not find out / to find out
120. to perceive as a body / to perceive as a spirit
121. to operate as a body / to operate as a spirit
122. to be a body / to be a spirit
123. to be human / to be godlike
124. to be in this universe / to leave this universe
125. to create unconsciously / to create consciously
126. to create matter unconsciously / to create matter consciously
127. to create space unconsciously / to create space consciously
128. to create energy unconsciously / to create energy consciously
129. to create time unconsciously / to create time consciously
130. to obey this implant / to defy this implant
131. to mock this up compulsively / to try not to mock this up consciously
end of disability implant